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A sad end to 2019...

I start this year with sad news. My dear friend Chris Orpin has passed away between Christmas and New Year. He was diagnosed with cancer just over three years ago and whilst we knew it was terminal, we did not expect his passing so soon. He and his wife, together with two old friends were meant to come and visit in a couple of weeks…………..

I am so upset for him, his wife and his two daughters, not to mention his mother.

I am so upset and no doubt am not alone when I say that although we knew that Chris was unlikely to see 2020, this came as a shock  and made me think about my own mortality. 

I spend a couple of hours sitting on the nearest beach today, thinking about the many funny times we had together during the 37 years I knew him.

We drove each other mad when we shared a house together many many years ago. He was tidy, I lived in chaos. He labelled his food in the fridge, I ate it anyway. He washed his company car which he was proud of, I ( by mistake) reversed into it. He collected butterflies, which he kept in the fridge in small containers, I wanted to release them and give them their freedom back. He went to bed at a reasonable time, I partied downstairs with my girlfriends…………….. We shared many many meals together as our families grew or I should say, ‘ as we all had sprogs!’, his favourite endearment for the children. He was a case, a one off, a special person, who was so funny without realising it, which made him even funnier.

My thoughts are with his family.

After a fantastic Christmas, the best ever ( I am so lucky, in 30 years, we have never had a Christmas without all our children, including our adopted children), I have today started an intense detox. I am on MMS and DMSO ( which I have mentioned previously but not expanded on. I will over the coming days), I am juicing and on high Cannabis oil ( THC content 66%) and CBD 20%. No more champagne, chocolate, cheese, rich food etc, which I succumbed to over Christmas. How could I not, Rhea, my daughter and Ben her boyfriend were cooking and we all suggested that they join ‘Master chef’ as their food is simply outstanding…………….. just not good for me, which is frustrating, as I always joked that ‘ I was born to eat and drink’. But, hey if it prolongs my life, then juicing, veggies, supplement etc is just fine by me.

I am looking forward to flying back to Germany in a couple of weeks to meet with Uwe again, who keeps telling me not to treat him like a MOT for the body and mind and keeps reminding me that I should practice mindfulness daily. I am trying.

After a long and hot summer.................

This summer has been somewhat busy ( again)

I returned from Germany mid July, Geoff picked me up from Varel ( North Germany)  and we drove  back, through Germany, Austria, Italy, France and then Spain. I wanted to retrace my childhood steps, when we lived in Southern Germany, whilst my parents had a yacht charter business in the Adriatic (Lignano).  A great trip, we also stopped off in Monaco and visited our son Jack for a much needed  catch up, after me being away for nearly 4 months.

Once we arrived back home, life took over, two birthday celebrations and a house full of ‘kids’ and partners, followed by me babysitting little Aiyala as in Spain the kindergartens close for all of August. I made it my mission to teach her ‘how not to drown in the pool’, which was a success. The first week of September, little Jack was born. I was fortunate enough to be there during the birth again and can’t explain the relief when we found out that this time no heart operation was needed. A prefect little boy, who also is the spitting image of Geoff’s late father and I am officially in love!!!

Apart from loving being a grandmother  to now two adorable fantastic babies, ( I am enjoying it more then being a mother) I have also been reading a lot and have started another ( alternative)  treatment.

When the professor in Berlin told me so kindly that I had ‘1,2 maybe 3 years left’, I decided to ensure that I prove not only him, but everyone else who predicted my early demise, wrong.

I am continuing to take the many supplements and vitamins. I have started Yoga here in Malaga, where I am spending a lot of my time now and have discovered MMS ( CDL) and DMSO. This really appears to be a miracle solution, as I have successfully helped my friend Inge ( I will come to that) and my daughter Kyla.

What is MMS?  Miracle mineral solution. Interestingly Jan my friend mentioned MMS over a year ago, but for some reason amongst all my different research, I missed it.

As with any unconventional treatment , which has not been approved by the FDA, there is a lot of conflicting information available.  Some sites, will tell you that it will kill you and others swear it will cure everything. On the basis, that I have nothing to lose (other then my life), I read up on it, contacted people who used it, spoke to the authors of various books and engrossed myself in this mine field of a topic. 

Still here, feeling great...........

Yes, I am still alive, in fact very alive and I will come to that. ( No I don't drink much alcohol nowadays, but celebrating the birth of my second grandchild calls for a small bottle of bubbly, right?!)

Firstly I thought I would explain a little more about the supplements, vitamins, detox products I have been taking. I have been receiving so many emails asking me over the last few months, which I have been replying to  individually, so here is my summary:

1. Allergosan Stress (also known as Omni Biotic Stress : Stress is not equal to stress. Short, temporary stress puts the organism in a "trial alarm" and acts like repeated training. One sleeps better and is more balanced.However, if you are under stress for a long time - whether professional or private - you place the entire organism in a permanent "state of alarm", the so-called dystress.
   This can affect the body in many ways: In addition to mental function (e.g., ability to concentrate), the energy balance and immune system are also affected. This also applies to different hormones, such as Sleep and happiness hormones.
   In addition, stress has effects on the mucous membranes, e.g. the intestinal mucosa. A normally functioning intestinal mucous membrane is colonized by trillions of natural intestinal bacteria, which play a central role in our organism.
2. Zeolith : The effect of zeolite has not been scientifically proven, but some studies have shown that zeolite has positive properties that could support the human organism.
   Basically, zeolite is said to be antiviral, antibacterial, anti-oxidative and detoxifying and act as a catalyst. Cell protection and discharge of the gastrointestinal tract are also repeatedly referred to in context. The main action described in the context is to have zeolite on the gastrointestinal tract. Throughout the intestinal tract are the free radicals that are said to be harmful to the body.
   Zeolite is said to make it with the active ingredient silicon ensure that the intestinal activity is regulated and improved. In addition, therefore, at the same time the immune system can be strengthened and the body can be detoxified.
3. Cordyceps: Traditional healers in Sikkim recommend the fungus/mushroom Cordyceps sinensis for “all illnesses” as a tonic, because they claim that it improves energy, appetite, stamina, libido, endurance, and sleeping patterns. It is a rare combination of a caterpillar and fungus found in Sikkim at altitudes above 3,800 m. 6 Benefits of Cordyceps: Increase Immune Function and Have Anti-Aging Effects. ...Increase Immune Function and Have Anti-Aging Effects. ...Improve Stamina and Athletic Performance. ...Act Like a Natural Aphrodisiac. ...Fight Diabetes. ...Improve Liver Function and Detoxification. ...Fight Respiratory Infections.
4. Agarius Balzei: https://thetruthaboutcancer.com/agaricus-blazei-murill-mushroom/
   The reported day-to-day health benefits of Agaricus include relief from chronic fatigue (more energy!), blood sugar balance, improved mood, lowered blood pressure, increased libido, and heightened immunity. The Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center also cites Agaricus as a remedy for conditions like arteriosclerosis (the thickening and hardening of arteries), hepatitis, dermatitis, hyperlipidemia (elevated triglyceride levels), high cholesterol, and obesity. But where Agaricusreally shines in the scientific literature is in the area of cancer, for which its resume of efficacy is nothing short of impressive. The two primary ways in which Agaricus is reported to stave off cancer is through immunopotentiation, an enhancement of the immune response; and direct inhibition of angiogenesis, the process by which cancer tumors form new blood vessels to supply them with food. By way of these two modes of action, Agaricus has shown incredible promise in the realm of anti-cancer research. Studies have shown that Agaricus may be beneficial in treating various types of cancer, including drug-resistant human hepatocellular carcinoma, non-lymphocytic leukemia, and prostate cancer, among others. Its unique ability to improve the activity and function of natural killer cells, which go after cancer cells in order to destroy them, is one of the reasons why Agaricus possesses this capability. That and the mushroom’s natural ability to stimulate the body’s innate immune system.
5. Sango Koralle: http://www.marine-bio.co.jp/en/coral-benefits/the-calcium-of-natural-coral-grains
   Coral calcium comes from the remains of coral and is naturally porous—it’s full of microscopic holes. Even the smallest grains of powdered calcium coral are a few microns in size, so the powder retains this porous quality. What does this mean? It’s less dense than calcium carbonate from limestone, and absorbs quickly into your bloodstream.It has greater surface area: because of all the holes, one gram of coral calcium is larger than one gram of other types of calcium carbonate. This means that gram for gram, more calcium is exposed to and absorbed by the cells in your body. It has high bioavailability: high absorption means more calcium reaches your system, and less leaves your body as waste. So you get the coral calcium benefits: sango calcium, magnesium and 74 other coral minerals you need.
6. Multi Extra Gold: https://www.eifelsan.com/multi-extra-gold-kapseln

Vitamine:  B12 Methylcobalamin	240 µg	9600
Provitamin A	266,4 µg
Vitamin B1 Thiamin	12 mg	1090
Folsäure Vit. B11	400 µg	200
Riboflavin Vit. B2	20 mg	1428
Vitamin B3 Niacin	96 mg	600
Vitamin B5 Pantothensäure	48 mg	800
Vitamin B6 (P5P)	12 mg	857
Vitamin B8 Inositol	0,24 mg	180
Vitamin C	415 mg	518
Vitamin E	26,8 mg	223
Vitamin K2	72 µg	96
Vitamin D3	12 µg	240
Vitamin H Biotin	60 µg	120

7. Tablet Vitamin B3: https://draxe.com/niacin-side-effects/
Vitamin B3, also called niacin and niacinamide, is an important water-soluble vitamin that can be found in many common foods including certain types of meat and organ meat, tuna fish, seeds, mushrooms and others. Niacin is a part of the vitamin B complex, along with other B vitamins including Vitamin B1 (thiamine), Vitamin B2 (riboflavin) and more. Vitamin B3, which is usually medically referred to as niacin, comes in 3 forms: nicotinic acid, Niacinamide and Inositol Hexaniacinate.

8. 1 Tablet B-Ultra
Vitamins are important building blocks of the body and help keep you in good health. B vitamins include thiamine, riboflavin, niacin/niacinamide, vitamin B1, B2, B3, B5, B6,vitamin B12, folic acid, and pantothenic acid. Provides a combination of nutrients to support the body's ability to cope with stress . Helps support the healthy functioning of the nervous system . Helps support energy production. Assists with the healthy function and production of red blood cells 

9. 1 Tablet Vitamin C: https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/vitamin-c-benefits
Protects against immune system deficiencies, cardiovascular disease, as well as prenatal health problems, eye disease and its also good for the skin. Vitamin C is a strong antioxidant that can strengthen your body’s natural defenses . Antioxidants are molecules that boost the immune system. They do so by protecting cells from harmful molecules called free radicals. When free radicals accumulate, they can promote a state known as oxidative stress, which has been linked to many chronic diseases. Studies show that consuming more vitamin C can increase your blood antioxidant levels by up to 30%. This helps the body's natural defenses fight inflammation.

10. 2 Tablets Zink: https://www.webmd.com/vitamins/ai/ingredientmono-982/zinc
Zinc is a mineral. It is called an "essential trace element" because very small amounts of zinc are necessary for human health. Since the human body does not store excess zinc, it must be consumed regularly as part of the diet..
It is also used for boosting the immune system, improving growth and heath in zinc deficient infants and children, for treating the common cold and recurrent ear infections, the flu, upper respiratory tract infections, preventing and treating lower respiratory infections, swine flu, bladder infections, ringing in the ears, and severe head injuries. It is also used for malaria and other diseases caused by parasites.
It is also taken by mouth anorexia nervosa, obsessive-compulsive disorder, depression, depression after pregnancy (postpartum depression), dementia, dry mouth, attention deficit-hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), blunted sense of taste (hypogeusia), hepatic encephalopathy, alcohol-related liver disease, Crohn's disease, ulcerative colitis, inflammatory bowel disease, canker sores, stomach ulcers, leg ulcers, and bed sores.
Some men take zinc by mouth for male fertility problems and enlarged prostate, as well as erectile dysfunction (ED).
Zinc is taken by mouth for osteoporosis, cysts on the ovaries, rheumatoid arthritis, psoriatic arthritis, warts, and muscle cramps in people with liver disease. It is also used for sickle cell disease, itching, rosacea, hair loss, psoriasis, eczema, acne, a blood disorder called thalassemia, Alzheimer's disease, Down syndrome, Hansen's disease, and cystic fibrosis.
It is also taken by mouth for cancer prevention, including esophageal cancer, colon and rectal cancer, stomach cancer, brain cancer, head and neck cancer recurrence, nasal and throat cancer recurrence, and non-Hodgkin's lymphoma. Zinc is used by mouth to prevent inflammation in the lining of the digestive tract, chemotherapy-related complications, anemia, pregnancy-related complications including iron deficiency, vitamin A deficiency (taken with vitamin A), seizures, arsenic poisoning, chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD), clogged arteries, leukemia, burns, diaper rash, leprosy, and skin lesions caused by leishmania infection.
Zinc is also applied to the skin for treating acne, foot ulcers caused by diabetes, leg ulcers, diaper rash, warts, aging skin, brown patches on the face, herpes simplex infections, parasitic infections, and to speed wound healing. Zinc is also applied to the anus for people with problems controlling bowel movements.

11. 2 Tablets Lebertran / also known as Cod liver oil: https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/270071.php

In 2017, scientists reported discovering a previously unknown group of molecules that may have anti-inflammatory properties. They come from cannabinoids that derive from omega-3 fatty acids. The researchers suggest that these molecules could be extracted from omega-3 fatty acids for therapeutic purposes. The effect, they say, could be similar to that produced by medicinal marijuana, but without the psychological risks. Cod liver oil is one of the richest sources of vitamin D available. Sun exposure is also important, because the body cannot get all of its vitamin D needs from food sources. Vitamin D is important for regulating calcium and phosphorus levels in the blood, two factors that are extremely important for maintaining healthy bones. It may also affect the risk of cancer, type 1 and type 2 diabetes, high blood pressure (hypertension), multiple sclerosis, and other conditions.

12. 3 Tablets Niacel: http://www.hoffmancenter.com/page.cfm/1551
Nicotinamide riboside (NR) is the most direct precursor to nicotinamide adenine dinucleotide (NAD+).* NAD+ is a key component of the citric acid cycle and the electron transport chain, both involved in mitochondrial production of ATP for energy. In addition to its importance in cellular energy production, NAD+ is a critical substrate for several enzymes, including sirtuins (SIRT1 and SIRT3, in particular), which play key roles in healthy aging, weight management, metabolic syndrome, and hepatic lipid metabolism. It supports insulin sensitivity. It promotes healthy aging by turning on sirtuins, which increases mitochondrial biogenesis. It is neuroprotective and supports cognitive function.

13. 1 Tablet Chrom – good evidence that it can lower glucose levels and improve insulin sensitivity , supports a healthy liver. It is also found in various vegetables like Broccoli, Barley, Beans, Tomatoes, Grape juice, etc, just to name a few

https://www.naturalfoodseries.com/11-benefits-chromium/

14. 1 Tablet Mangan – some of the health benefits include healthy bones, formation of connective tissues, absorption of calcium etc and a  lot more
https://www.organicfacts.net/health-benefits/minerals/health-benefits-of-manganese.html

15. 1 Tablet Vitamin D3 – helps absorb calcium and promote bone growth. A Vitamin D deficiency has been linked to breast cancer , colon cancer, prostrate cancer, heart disease etc.
https://www.webmd.com/osteoporosis/features/the-truth-about-vitamin-d-why-you-need-vitamin-d
This has really made me reflect on my life style the last 18 years. Whilst living in the South of Spain with an average of 360 days of sunshine, I spent little time in the sun, as I was working virtually round the clock to build my company and raise our three children. This could have been such an ‘easy fix’ if I h ad stopped and thought about what I was doing to my body. The body makes Vitamin D itself but only after the skin has been exposed to sufficient sunlight. Needless to say, since knowing this, I am spending as much time outside as I realistically can.

16. 1 Tablet Selen ( every other day) which is Selenium in English. It may reduce the risk of certain cancers and boost the immune system. Here it is important not to overdo it, if you take to o much selenium the side effects are not pretty. I take it every other day.
https://ods.od.nih.gov/factsheets/Selenium-Consumer/

17. 1 tee spoon of Taurin in a glass of water, apparently once of the most ‘essential substances in the body’ as it increases the action of the insulin, improves glucose tolerance, acts as an antioxidant and is vital for the proper function of the minerals of calcium, magnesium sodium etc.
https://www.lifeextension.com/magazine/2013/6/The-Forgotten-Longevity-Benefits-of-Taurine/Page-01

18. Globuli,  a homeopathic method which is used with chronic diseases , good against tiredness.

19 & 20 Schuessler Salze,  http://www.engel-apotheke-freiburg.de/main/wissen/schuessler-salze.html
http://schuessler-cell-salts.com/principle/index.htm
Wilhelm Schüßler (1821-1898) discovered that diseases occur when the mineral balance of the cells is disturbed. Dr. Schuessler can be regulated by the intake of mineral salts, which occur naturally in the body, the mineral balance of the cells. The balance is restored. The 12 mineral salts called Dr. Schüßler also as a "functional agent", as they fulfill essential functions in our body. The salts, which include, for example, magnesium phosphoricum or silicea, stimulate the body to mobilize its self-healing powers. For the salts to have their full effect, they must be processed homeopathically, that is, triturated with milk sugar and "potentiated". Mineral salts produced in this way are pharmacy-only and therefore only available in pharmacies.

21. Cellfood, ideal for body detoxification. It is known to contain 78 ionic minerals, 17 amino acids and 34 enzymes.

23. Biologo Regulation,  https://www.ll-euro.com/produkte/biologo-produktlinie/biologo-regulation
Biologo Detox is an effective and well-balanced detoxification agent that dissolves, binds and safely releases heavy metals, chemical toxins and mycotoxins (mold toxins). 

24. Phoenix Detroxing therapy,  http://www.engel-apotheke-freiburg.de/main/wissen/spagyrik/ausleitung-und-entgiftung.htm
This is a combination of 4 different spagyrical products, which activates the liver, kidney and skin as well as the lymphsystem to get rid of toxins. It basically contributes to cleaning the liver. It aids the regeneration of the lypmphsystem.

25. Blackseed oil, which is extracted from seeds of the black cumin is a remedy for a number of illnesses and conditions. Basically it boosts the immune system and reduces inflammation in the body and fights infection. I initially drank the oil, which made me heave ( simply an awful taste) and am now taking it in tablet form.
https://www.verywellhealth.com/health-benefits-of-black-seed-oil-89421 https://www.betternutrition.com/checkout/black-seed-oil-benefits

26. Q10, acts as an antioxidant which protects cells from damage and plays a huge role in the metabolism. https://www.webmd.com/diet/supplement-guide-coenzymeq10-coq10#1 ¸ https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/coenzyme-q10#section1

27. Apricot Stones ; is seen as a natural cancer treatment , including Breast cancer ( although many medics would dispute this). It is without doubt one of the best sources of vitamin 17. https://www.bodyandsoul.com.au/nutrition/nutrition-tips/are-apricot-kernels-a-miracle-cure/news-story/71a6ec646ad3df5239b16180f08be592
https://thetruthaboutcancer.com/apricot-kernels-for-cancer/

28. Kreosotum C200,  itchy skin ( which is often a sign of cancer)
Plumbum: https://www.doctorshealthpress.com/food-and-nutrition-articles/alternative-remedies-food-and-nutrition-articles/homeopathic-lead-plumbum-metallicum/   works against leg cramps

            
In addition I also use Magnesium oil, which I have bought initially ready made, but am now making it myself.

https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/10-proven-magnesium-benefits#section10 Magnesium is a mineral found in the earth, sea, plants, animals and humans. About 60% of the magnesium in your body is found in bone, while the rest is in muscles, soft tissues and fluids, including blood.In fact, every cell in your body contains it, and needs it to function.
One of magnesium's main roles is acting as a cofactor or "helper molecule" in the biochemical reactions continuously performed by enzymes. It is actually involved in more than 600 reactions in your body, including: Energy creation: Helps convert food into energy. Protein formation: Helps create new proteins from amino acids. Gene maintenance: Helps create and repair DNA and RNA. Muscle movements: Is part of the contraction and relaxation of muscles. Nervous system regulation: Helps regulate neurotransmitters, which send messages throughout your brain and nervous system.

Tablets and more tablets.................

I mentioned previously how many tablets and ‘powdered drinks’ I am consuming per day and thought it might be helpful to some readers to list and explain what I know.

The idea behind this is to completely detox my body and to get rid of all metals in my body, which have built up over long years.

Funny really how in the past my idea of detoxing was not to drink wine for a week or so……………. Laughable really, to think how unhealthy my lifestyle was without realising it. I really thought that eating ‘low fat’ food, eating veggies and salad and drinking two liters of water a day, was a healthy lifestyle…………. No, it wasn’t! I know that now.

Detoxing is not only about addressing what we eat and drink ( or better in my case what I ate and drunk), but also about the mental state. As I see it , it is about ‘clearing everything out’, cleaning all organs as well as the head / mind / soul. But, for now, I will talk about the body detoxing in terms of supplements etc.

After waking up:
1. 1 tea spoon of Allergosan Stress (also known as Omni Biotic Stress) in a glass of water       (tasteless)                                                                
2. 1 tea spoon Zeolith in a glass of water (tastes like dirty gritty sand)

Before Breakfast:
3. 1 tea spoon of Cordyceps mushroom in a glass of water. (tastes like dirty sand)

4. 1 tea spoon of Agaricus Balzei mushroom in a glass of water. (tastes like mouldy mushrooms)
5. 1 tea spoon of Sango Koralle in a glass of water.  (tastes of nothing)

With Breakfast:
6. 1 Tablet Multi Extra Gold

7. 1 Tablet Vitamin B3

8. 1 Tablet B-Ultra
9. 1 Tablet Vitamin C

10. 2 Tablets Zink
11. 2 Tablets Lebertran
12. 3 Tablets Niacel
13. 1 Tablet Chrom
14. 1 Tablet Mangan
15. 1 Tablet Vitamin D3

16. 1 Tablet Selen ( every other day)
17. 1 tea spoon of Taurin in a glass of water

After Breakfast:
18. 3 Globuli also known as ‘Enos-Enzym+klotho-Protein+PGC-1 Alphaprotein. Disolves under     tongue.
19. 7 Tablets of Pflueger  (number 7) Schuessler Salze

20. 5 Tablets of Pflueger  (number 25) Schuessler Salze

Mid morning:
21. Cellfood (week 1- 10 drops, week 2 -15 drops, week 3 – 20 drops, week 4 – 30 drops , thereafter   40 drops in a glass of water). It tastes like ‘sick’, simply vile beyond belief. (I tend to reward myself   with a couple of dates afterwards, just to get rid of the disgusting taste)

22. 1 tube Allegorsan Caricol (tastes like guava, quite enjoy taking this one)

Late mid morning:
23. 30 drops of Biologo in a glass of water. (looks like mud, but tastes ok)

Throughout the day:

24. A 1.5 liter bottle of water into which I add Phoenix Detoxifying drops from 4 different bottles: (    week 1 - 15 drops from each bottle, week 2- 20 drops, week 3 – 30 drops, week 4 – 40 drops and       thereafter 60 drops per bottle, that is 240 drops to be added to a bottle of water. Yes, I can taste it   and no, I don’t really enjoy it, but hey, needs must!

With Lunch:
12. 2 tablets Niacel
18. 3 tablets Globuli

After Lunch:
22. 1 tube of Allergosan Caricol
21. Cellfood in glass of water (still tastes like puke)

Mid Afternoon:
23. 30 drops of Biologo in a glass of water

Before Dinner:
3. 1 tea spoon of Cordyceps mushroom in a glass of water. (tastes like dirty sand)

4. 1 tea spoon of Agaricus Balzei mushroom in a glass of water. (tastes like mouldy mushrooms)
5. 1 tea spoon of Sango Koralle in a glass of water.  (tastes of nothing)

With Dinner:
9.   2 Tablets of Vitamin C
12. 2 Tablets of Niacel
11. 1 Tablet of Lebertran

After Dinner:
21. Cellfood (drops as per above) in a glass of water. (by this time I want to be sick)
25. 2 tablets of Blackseed oil
26. 2 tablets of Q10
27. 2 tablets of Apricot stones
28. 3 tablets (alternate days) of Plumbum / Kesosotum

Before Bed:
1. 1 tea spoon of Allergosan Stress (also known as Omni Biotic Stress) in a glass of water     (tasteless)                                                                
2. 1 tea spoon Zeolith in a glass of water (tastes like dirty gritty sand)
 29 & 30. Cannabis Oil and CBD
 A large mug of hot lemon with ginger and Applecider Vinegar

I also take a quarter spoon of Natrium with honey every day.

I will explain what these products are all prescribed for in my next post.

Frankfurt.............

During my time here in Germany, I also spent two weeks in Frankfurt, where I saw a Kinesiologist Mr Walter Pfeiffer and his wife Mrs Susan Pfeiffer who worked in the same field as Uew Stein in Varel.

https://www.a-institut.de/

What is Kinesiology good for?
And what does kinesiology treat? Kinesiology can be used for a range of issues and symptoms including:

• All types of pain
• Detoxification
• Depression, anxiety and stress
• Identifying nutritional deficiency or excess

In addition Mr Pfeiffer works with Energy flow, which is actually something that has blown me away. Initially I have to admit, I was skeptical. I am a logical person and have gone through life with my feet firmly on the ground. When I first met him, I was not sure what to make of him. He sat with his eyes closed and every now and then he would make a ‘mmhh’ sounds. Very disconcerting when you don’t know what he is doing. He basically ‘worked with my energy’. I was skeptical and tried hard to have an open mind, until……………….one Sunday.

I had seen Mr Pfeiffer on Saturday afternoon, we have a good chat and I had cycled back to my apartment in Frankfurt, near Sachsenhausen, cooked dinner and went to bed. The next morning, I tried to open my eyes, but simply couldn’t. Every time I opened my eyes, everything seemed to be flickering a million times a second. I could not focus and felt sick. I tried sleeping more, but ended up having to be sick three times. At the time I remember thinking how strange it was that I brought no food up, not even the token piece of carrot of tomato skin, only ‘bile’. I felt awful and did not manage to get myself into an ‘upright’ position until late afternoon. That evening, I noticed that my two cysts in my right breast ( the reason I agreed to a check up in Berlin / Charite, back in January), appeared to have gone / dissolved. I tried, but could not feel them. I checked again the next morning, nothing, no cysts. Thankfully I had another appointment the following day with Mr Pfeiffer and could not wait to tell him about my last 24 hours. When I did, he did not seem surprised at all. He told me that what I brought up was unlikely to have been bile, but the dissolved cysts. How is this even possible? Mr Pfeiffer then told me that he had a lung cancer patient who had literally ‘coughed up’ a lung cancer tumor following his treatment. ( apparently the hospital had confirmed that it was the cancer tumor after analysis) 

What can I say?! I really want to believe that this is true and so far ( touch wood), nearly 4 weeks later, I am not able to feel the cysts I had. I will of course have this checked via a scan in November when I am in Berlin.
This naturally fills me with great hope. If two cysts can dissolve like this, then surely whatever is happening inside my body has to be equally positive

In addition he has also prescribed me with a long long list of ‘medication’ ( all natural), which I will write about later. It involved taking over 60 tablets a day as well as 12 different tasting ( most are vile tasting) powdered drinks. I had to write myself a neat little timetable to try and work out what is taken on an empty stomach, pre, during post meals etc. 

Mrs Pfeiffer was an absolute star! She opened my mind to so many new areas. We talked and talked and I was provided with so many books, most of which I ordered online later. I can't remember reading this much ever in my life. ( am loving it!)


I made the most of my stay in Frankfurt, where I booked another Airbnb property and met up with old friends and Ex-Jaguar colleagues, when I was not seeing Mr and Mrs Pfeiffer. We had a great time and I managed to ‘go flying’ with Herbert, after talking about it for over 20 years. It was simply fantastic!

Varel and my next steps

I am officially taking on the challenge of defying the medical profession. As I see it, I have no choice.

The Professor in Charite  hospital / Berlin, wants me to undergo a ‘chemical treatment’ ( similar to chemo) called TDM1 which acts as an antibody similarly to Herceptin and is supposed to reduce / prevent spreading of the cancer. Having looked into it and also not forgetting that I had Herceptin for a year, which was supposed to do the same and clearly failed, hence the third ( lung cancer) operation, I have discounted this option at the moment. 

In fact a couple of weeks ago was a day that threw me back, temporarily. I understand that my cancer is now stage 4 and that I still have metastasis in my lung and behind my breast muscle. ( had to google that one and find out how large the breast muscle is and where exactly it is located.  ( almost daily I am regretting not paying more attention during Biology/ Chemistry and Physics at school). They are not able to operate.

Therefore I have two options, follow Doctor’s advice , whilst truly believing that every drop of the new drug is going to aid towards a quick death ( the list of interesting side effects is also worth digesting) or throw my heart, soul and mind into alternative treatment on every level? ( according to the my professor I have between ‘1,2 maybe 3 years life expectancy’, which he communicated to me in a typical direct German way by phone. Interestingly, I only had a minor melt down and managed to pick myself up quite quickly) The hospital can’t provide me with statistics. I wanted to know what my life expectancy chances are if I was to consider TDM1, but unfortunately according to him that is not possible, as I don’t fit ‘into protocol’, because I only had one chemo session.  In fact I had a very frustrating call with him, as he is suggesting that I should have a PET/CT scan now, then TDM1 for 6 months, followed by another PET/CT scan. When I asked him if metastasis can be seen via a PET/CT scan, he told that this was not possible, that only new tumors would be visible. I thought about this for a while, but can’t understand the logic as to why I should have a (toxic) scan now, when I have had one 3 months ago, and if it does not show metastasis anyway, which according to the Professor I now have throughout my body. For this reason, I moved the planned scan to the end of November. This will give me time to heal myself. A statement that most people are likely to laugh at.

Well, for those who know me, I am making it my mission to defy those statistics and am not only planning my 60^th Birthday ( in 6 years) but also my 70^th!

I have not written the last few weeks, mainly because I would not have known where to start and what to write. I am also fully aware that the next few publications of my blog are likely to be interpreted as ‘Anke has officially lost her mind’. No, I have not, in fact I have FOUND my mind.

I wholeheartedly believe that any illness is created by the individual and that any symptoms are merely a warning sign that we are ‘not ok’ in mind, soul and heart. ( Rutty, Tobers, Orpin …… don’t register me in a mental home just yet). I know that these words coming from me, seem pretty unbelievable and far fetched. In fact much of what I have experienced , heard and done these last few weeks, I would have simply laughed at a few years ago and carried on working.

My last entry was written just after I arrived in Varel. I had the greatest fortune of renting an apartment from the kindest people I have met in my life. Inge and Hartmut live in the main house, where I rented the apartment. Their kindness has reduced me to tears a couple of times. I was invited to countless dinners, was driven when I could not ride the bike due to ( the glorious wet and windy spring ) rain and storms and have found a lovely friend in Inge. She bakes the most amazing cakes and has filled me up with herbal teas on a daily basis.

Sadly I had to move out after a couple of weeks, as she had other bookings. ( When I booked her place I had not idea how long I would stay and only initially booked 2 weeks). This meant I had to find alternative accommodation, which I did. Peter the second landlord was also helpful and lovely, as was Ursula who owned a beautiful farmhouse with the most beautiful ‘nature garden’ ( only ever seen one like it, Chris Orpin, you know I am talking about you!! 😊).  I can’t get over the kindness of people here and am wondering why I had such negative thoughts about Germany most of my life. ( Although I actually know the answer to this).

During my stay in Varel, I met with Uwe Stein ( a Heilpraktiker, I have no idea what this is in English) every day. He is an amazing man, in his ‘previous life’  he was a diver for the navy amongst other things. A hard job where feelings and emotions were seen as weakness. Just the man for me. Having said that, at the beginning I had no idea what to expect, other then the feedback I had from Christoph who highly recommended him. 

Cutting a long story short, we talked and talked. He did a ‘Familienrueckstellung’, which takes you back to day one, almost, and the summary of my  time with him can only be collated  with these words: ( quoted in Erika J Chopich’s book, where she talks about ‘Inner Bonding Therapy’)

Everyone of us has two personality aspects, the adult and the child. If these two parts are in contact with each other and work together,  then we experience a feeling of completeness. If, however these two parts are not in contact with each other, be it because we are hurt, upset, or have not grown wise to this revelation, then we don’t function and a feeling of conflict ( internal conflict), emptiness and loneliness develop.

To acknowledge our ‘inner child’ and to value it, is the fundamental essence . There are plenty of books written about this subject, all suggest that a mental ‘unbalance’ ( upset, disappointment, resentment, anger, frustration etc, i.e. negative emotions often in the subconscious mind) is likely to affect our bodies over the long term,  to becoming ill. These illnesses could be anything , the worst of course being cancer.

Furthermore I believe that if my body can create a toxic environment and let cancer develop, then my body can also ‘undo’ this and create a well balanced alkaline body, which is achieved by addressing the body, soul and mind, through diet, lifestyle, calmness, meditation ( something I have not yet mastered, but am trying) mindfulness. I understand now that TODAY counts ( not because I think I am going to die soon) but because the past has past ( nothing can be changed about it) and we can’t predict the future or influence it today. Yes , of course we can make plans, but the end of the day, the old saying   ‘you never know what is around the corner’ is spot on. So why did I waste so many thoughts, so much time on analysing the past and worrying about the future? I actually have no idea and I realise now, that arguably I have wasted so much energy ( often negative energy) and wasted so much time on something I actually could not have influenced.


I will write more about this topic ( mindfulness) later.