is on. I hate waiting on a normal day, but waiting for this
operation, feels like waiting for my execution.
Having said that, I see the operation as a 'minor annoyance' that need to be dealt with. I hope this surgeon is better than the last one. I hope that the 'sealing' of the removed Lymphnodes will do the trick. I hope that they don't remove the drainage too early again. ( like the last time) and with that I hope that I won’t have an infection. ( like I had the last time). I hope that I don't get Lymphedema and if I do, that it is not as bad as I am expecting. I hope that his is the last operation and that I don't need another one in a few months, because the dam thing has popped up somewhere else.
Having said that, I see the operation as a 'minor annoyance' that need to be dealt with. I hope this surgeon is better than the last one. I hope that the 'sealing' of the removed Lymphnodes will do the trick. I hope that they don't remove the drainage too early again. ( like the last time) and with that I hope that I won’t have an infection. ( like I had the last time). I hope that I don't get Lymphedema and if I do, that it is not as bad as I am expecting. I hope that his is the last operation and that I don't need another one in a few months, because the dam thing has popped up somewhere else.
Right now, the
'dam thing' ( polite version of the bastard f.......g enemy) must be squashing
a nerve under my arm, as I struggle to lift it. Minor I know, but a reminder on
a daily basis, that the dam thing is still in there and growing.
I said just now that I see the operation as a 'minor annoyance'. Why? Well that answer could cover at least 10 chapters in my book. ( I have decided to write a book, but not quite yet). Why 10 chapters?
I said just now that I see the operation as a 'minor annoyance'. Why? Well that answer could cover at least 10 chapters in my book. ( I have decided to write a book, but not quite yet). Why 10 chapters?
Well, I have read to many books now, been on so many website, Utube, facebook, met and spoken to many other people who are sick with cancer and have met two doctors I actually have faith in. That is a novelty for me. Both have 'opted out', both support alternative, holistic treatment. What does 'holistic' mean? Up to only a few days ago, I would not have been able to answer that one with any confidence.
holisticadjective
US /hoʊˈlɪs·tɪk/
Holistic medicine attempts to treat the whole person, including mind and body, not just the injury or disease.<
Interesting, if
someone had tried to talk to me about a ‘holistic’ approach last year, I would
have laughed and walked on. How little did I know then, only I didn’t know
that. Now I know how little I know.
So what am I talking
about? David Khayat MD , believes that ‘some cancers result from the
carcinogenic action of an infectious agent. Few people are aware of this, but
many cancers are directly connected to an infection in an organ from specific
bacteria or viruses.’ ( taken from his book ‘The Anti Cancer Diet’. If he is
correct, then forget the holistic approach and my infection last year ( which
was confirmed by three doctors to ‘only be an infection that will go away by
itself’), was the cause of cancer tumor number 2.
But if there is more
to it? How does a body become toxic, toxic enough to allow cancer cells to
multiply? I read that unless we understand the deep underlying cause of why the
cancer was able to grow in the first place, we are likely to enter a race we will
lose. Another tumor will from and grow and another one after that.
My mission is to find out more about the holistic approach. Having met Jose Antonio, who was lives near Competa, I feel for the first time that I have met a doctor who cares. I met him last week, and am due to see him again a week after the operation.
Those of you reading this, who know me, are likely to shake their heads at the thought of me pursuing this type of treatment. We will see. I am actually looking forward to it.
My mission is to find out more about the holistic approach. Having met Jose Antonio, who was lives near Competa, I feel for the first time that I have met a doctor who cares. I met him last week, and am due to see him again a week after the operation.
Those of you reading this, who know me, are likely to shake their heads at the thought of me pursuing this type of treatment. We will see. I am actually looking forward to it.
I have reduced my
Cannabis oil today, in preparation for tomorrow, but will step it up again from
Tuesday onwards. I am now on 1ml per day ( as per Rick Simpson) and I have to
say, my days have become very very short. But that is part of the healing, lots
of sleep. I think I have caught up on the many sleepless nights I had when I
was flying or when I was feeding the kids. ( when they were babies).
On and up, the next
time I will write anything, the operation will be over. I did ask the surgeon
to take a photo of my tumor, but she won’t. Therefore now, I have asked to take
it home after they have tested it. I might need it if I have the Mammoprint
test done. Geoff is not keen on having a cancer tumor in our fridge, but hey,
after he had his hip replaced, they send Geoff home with part of the bone they
had cut off , in a see-through jar! ( We had it for a number of years and
then thought better of it, and put it in the rubbish. At the time it felt strange ‘throwing a piece of Geoff’ in the bin!)
On and up! J
My hero x
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